Thankful for Peace Found in the Tensions of Life
Peace. It’s what everyone wants, especially beauty queens.
Peace. For many years it seemed invasive to me. I thought a day, a circumstance, an action, a person, a prayer, a moment, an event or something would make it happen. I thought if only I could get all the planets of my world aligned in a certain way then I would have peace.
With time I’ve come to realize that endless pursuit of perfection was bringing stress, not peace.
Peace. It is possible, but not as I thought before.
Today I’m thankful for peace… especially when found in the tensions of life.
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Over the past few years, I’ve changed my eating habits to take better care of my body.
I’m thankful for the peace I’ve found in that tension…
by saying no to good-tasting, familiar, but unhealthy foods,
I feel better and have more energy then I thought possible..
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Sometimes relationships have been a challenge for me. At times, I’ve felt like a failure as a wife, mother, friend, sister, daughter and more because I couldn’t be everything for everyone.
I’m thankful for the peace I’ve found in that tension…
by realizing I didn’t have to lose myself or change the other person,
but instead I need to allow them to be them and me to be me.
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After surviving a life-threatening accident, I spent years depressed because I didn’t know how to live with my new normal … pain, limitations and a deformed leg.
I’m thankful for the peace I’ve found in that tension…
by celebrating all the good that happened,
while being honest about the disappointments I now live with.
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Post-accident, when my pain was severe, all the pain and suffering of the world overwhelmed me to the point of feeling helpless, because I knew others dealt with much more than I did.
I’m thankful for the peace I’ve found in that tension…
by realizing I can’t prevent or stop everyone’s pain and suffering,
but I can make life better for a few children around the world by sponsoring them.
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As I wrote about in a guest post at Rachel Held Evans’ site… I’ve been in a spiritual/religious funk and I have more questions and doubts than ever.
I’m thankful for the peace I’ve found in that tension…
by accepting that there will be mysteries in life I don’t understand,
while continuing to search and explore for a path that works for me.
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